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Light at the end of the tunnel

Posted on: March 5, 2015 by Naomi M. Pridjian | 11 Comments
Light at the end of the tunnel

Light at the end of the tunnel

I’ve been around for a while and am just a hair past the border between middle and old age, but you wouldn’t know that if I didn’t tell you. I have an intense and passionate nature that sometimes gets me into trouble with others of a milder, northern European character. I’ve known the best of times and the worst of times and plenty in between. For most of my life, when things got tough and despair fringed the edges of my brain, I would remember my mother telling me that there was always darkness before the dawn and light at the end of the tunnel. I don’t think she practiced this artifice on herself very regularly, and truth be told, I have to be pretty desperate to do it myself. But when I did, it seemed to help. Now, when I look through the tunnel I see a light, but it’s not just friendly and reassuring, it’s moving toward me with uncompromising regularity, getting brighter all the time.

 

This is the old age reality check…suddenly realizing that life does not go on and on and our tomorrows are limited in number. Wow! I don’t look old or seem old, but I don’t have as much stamina as I once had. Old age is now considered 80+ according to Shelley Emling, of The Huffington Post. I have a few years to go, but clearly, I am embarking on the last 1000 miles of my journey on planet Earth and I am sobered by this thought. I survived cancer; I’m not afraid of dying, but I’m not ready to get my affairs in order. I am not ready to work on this yet. I want to dance, maybe not on pointe, but turning a decent pirouette. I want to be all that I can be…do all that I can do…and make sure my loved ones will be ok.

 

When I see that light moving toward me, I look away: Ill think about you tomorrow…today is today.

11 Responses

  1. Anne — March 16, 2015 at 2:51 pm

    So glad you are creating again in this form. What you write is poignant and this image is gorgeous!

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    • Naomi M. Pridjian — March 16, 2015 at 2:58 pm

      A million thank you(s). The images were created over a long, and challenging period of time. The blog essay happened after the site was composed and tangible. My mind is organic… 🙂

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  2. Korin — March 16, 2015 at 10:48 pm

    nice to hear realistic experience of getting older. Better than all the platitudes. Beautiful images too.

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    • Naomi M. Pridjian — March 17, 2015 at 2:04 am

      Thank you.

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  3. Marcia — March 18, 2015 at 5:24 pm

    … beautiful expressions of what we all know inside, or even what we may not have brought into focus yet. Love your words and your visuals, Naomi, and all that lies behind and beneath it all! Thanks for being You so brave and courageous! You are a tribute to Yin/Womankind.

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    • Naomi M. Pridjian — March 18, 2015 at 8:21 pm

      Thank you. Bringing out what I knew inside was a long and challenging journey. Bravery and courage are qualities that always want feeding, and always, always, need rocks and hard places just to stay alive and ready. I wish it were not so, but alas… tis just so for most of us.

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  4. Korin — March 19, 2015 at 1:29 pm

    Can you add audio? Just wondering because I’m not techy. Bruce Cockburn’s Starfields/Stardust (?) would go beautifully with the images.

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  5. Korin — March 20, 2015 at 1:23 pm

    I hear Karena’s music now – beautiful, really ties it all together.

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  6. Andrew M. Prokopis — March 30, 2015 at 7:58 pm

    There is nothing that is better than to hear the truth, or, at least, what is a person’s truth for themselves. I am younger than you, not by much, but your words resonate. Glad to be connecting with you. Your work, and your life, is an inspiration.
    Andrew

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    • Naomi M. Pridjian — March 30, 2015 at 8:21 pm

      Thank you so much for visiting Genesis and sharing your thoughts. I appreciate what you say and will be writing to you very soon. Truth speaks words with roots from many yesterdays. How can it be otherwise? This re-connection is very meaningful for Korin and me. So much to process…

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  7. Janene — April 14, 2015 at 1:52 pm

    Naomi, you are a wonder! Even though I am a few years younger than you (not many!), I too resonate with your powerful words about approaching the end of life. I too want to do all I can do and be all I can be in order to truly “live” my remaining days on this earth. I want to do something meaningful, something real, something rewarding, something valuable, something pleasurable, something joyful, something which brings life to others. Thank you for being an inspiration for all of us with how you live your life. Thank you for your courage to express your deepest thoughts about life and growth through your words, your art and your dance.

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